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I saw autumn coming my way.
Everything around me was shedding and so was I.
But things are not as great as they seem. Everything is starting to die around me I'll push through.
Though things are not as great as they seem.
The colors she reps are still distracting. I'll push through.
Last Time we spoke you were sitting on the stairs.
Looked you in the eyes and brushed back your hair.
Look me dead in the face and just tell me what the fuck you mean.
Stop tripping over your tongue, you're not that young no more excuses.
You've been saying a lot of bullshit but it's anyone's guess where you head went now.
Why you acting fucked up but when you fucked up you don't, you just keep your eyes wide shut.
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Fuck 12
03:09
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Fuck 12:
Winter of last year, I was completely enamored.
You made revolutions round in my mind.
While you were out at parties getting hammered your memories would take up my time.
The whole night you were out talking to hot Danny, I pretended to live out the made up fantasies.
Walking in the hall way and staring in to your eyes, watching your pupils dilate.
If you tried and have given up you should try a little more.
Not every day does sally lou coming moving in next door.
Beautiful and pleasant I place in comparison.
I might be a dick but I’m just proud to be Danny’s friend.
I looked inside and observed myself.
You just learn to live without someone else.
I think my heart’s starting to melt.
What is now so bad was once so good.
It’s hard to admit but I think I should.
I don’t know if I even could.
Winter of last year I was completely enamored but fuck what I said last time I’m getting hammered.
I’m done with all the brooding it’s not fucking amusing.
I lie awake all nights thinking about what you meant to me.
Fuck all the times it was just us.
I’ve burned all the memories and blew them away like dust.
Don’t think for a second it hasn’t left me crcushed,
I’ve been through it all and enough is fucking enough.
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3. |
Cop Pranks Gone Wrong
03:06
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You will brave the black clouds that are rolling over head.
When boisterous boys turn to manly men then you can't trust the things they said.
Guys are pigs, but that's not me.
Won't you believe just pleases baby?
We are embraced in to time and space.
We found ourselves then ended up in this place.
I will remember you in this sea of shit.
I spent too many evenings alone and i'm better for it.
He we are, alive again.
I spent my day being one but now that time ends.
Ask and you shall receive anything other than some time to breathe.
I will remember you in this sea of shit.
I spent too many evenings alone and i'm better for it
Your kindness was shown in strange ways.
Lies that fell apart were to hide your pain.
Movies you watched with me and the smell of your hair, painfully reminds me that you're not there.
FUCK
It's not fair.
There are lights in this courtyard that flicker and fade.
There are trips to the ocean spent thinking and staring at waves.
Crashing and distorting like these terrible thoughts.
Those moments I could have changed something that I never caught.
But there are lights in this courtyard that are getting replaced.
There are deja vu moments I can finally face.
It's constant rejection and fuck i'm fed up.
Everything's depressing and I've had enough.
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Matty B (The God EmCee)
02:55
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Won't you be my Jersey Queen?
You mean everything to me my little bean.
I'm lugubrious and cis and I'd probably turn your life to shit.
Fuck what you mean, said fuck what you heard.
You mean everything to me my little bird.
He wouldn't treat you like I would anyway.
You know he wouldn't treat you like I would anyway.
Who we are, and what we became.
Together forever, I don't wanna live that way (x4)
I'm not whole anymore.
I've been a wreck since the day you left (x4)
I'm void of it all (x3)
I've been staying inside.
You're in the back of my mind.
I'm up every morning spending time with you.
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187
02:42
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I like dance to around the facts, and dress and black, howling at the moon.
Complaining about the last time that I spoke to you.
Watching you watching me me dress, after sex, an emptiness.
Fills my insides with a type of uncertainty I can't describe.
This is the worst thing you could have done to me.
Constantly fearing in anticipation of what youll say.
I feel alive
Fuck alive
I feel alone
Good riddance now you're gone, you moved on, what's there after that.
No point chasing this imaginary artifact.
Now I talk it out and walk it off and in my Dreams I choke and cough.
Is that all this ever has been? Those words you said stopped everything
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I’ll wash my hands of guilt but that won’t clear my psyche.
I’ve heard it all before you’ll say you want someone just like me.
The way you laughed, danced, sang, and smiled.
I knew it when we said goodbye that I’d be thinking about you for a while
It’s all a fairy tale,
In my mind.
I’ll follow the breadcrumb trail,
Down to the end of the line.
As we get farther
The further we go I become scared of you.
If you know who I am then I fear what you’ll do.
But I’ll just roll with the punches because you’re beautiful.
Compared to you I always feel so dull.
I need you to know something.
You know what?
Oh god girl, you were still a good good time.
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7. |
9021Puerto Ric0
03:21
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All I ever wanted was to stay lost.
Numb to feeling to despair and naive to trust.
Ignorant to the way someone could make me feel.
Left with no other option but to acknowledge that it’s real.
Is that the way things have to be?
Then I’ll have faith it’ll be so worth the wait for you.
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March 19th at 3:00 am we became more than friends.
At least I did but you still tried to keep your distance.
I didn't know you felt that way And I'm sorry that you're afraid.
But I won't be coming to back to share and I don't want to hear you say you care.
You're the ones causing all my problems/
For yourself and everybody else.
If you're not willing to give up yourself,
Then take the option off the shelf
If you're really upset about losing me like I should have sympathy.
I feel ashamed to be a toy in another of your games.
Is there a hole burned in your soul caused by a fire started by a bag of coal?
Im sorry if that's the case but then you should know what it's like to be in that place.
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9. |
Obramaham Lincoln
03:04
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The time to get wasted,
Is when I'm all alone.
Don't need a reminder,
Of the things I called home.
I can't blame you,
It's not your fault.
That's the way,
It happened to be.
Cruising on this train of thought.
Sinking in to what you are.
You are a fairy tale,
You are a shooting star.
It's not I don't think you're real.
It's just never in the cards.
But I'll burn this building down,
And say fuck everyone.
Now you're at the end of the gun.
Let's see who's having fun.
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